For some reason, I hate nice people O_o...

I like weird people... I like extra sarcastic or blur people. I also like the people who are nice but i know they aren't 100% nice. I dunno why, but it's really hard to believe that there is actually someone who is really nice... i dunno why.

Probably I don't trust them, because i've had some very unpleasent past experiences with friends back at my old school(probably one of the reason why i'm so screwed up right now.. ha ha XDDD)...Well there is also a recent story that made me not trust people who appear to be very nice...

There's this girl(whose name shall not be revealed cause i'm a very kind person..pfft..Just call her girl X)in class --BEEP--, she is very nice to people, she allows them to borrow her stuff, when people accidently spilled their water on her baju she didn't mind, when people ask her to help them with homework she helped... but...one day... One of my --BEEP-- was crying cause a few or her classmates were talking bad about her behind her back...

I asked her how did she find out. She said that one of her friends(girl Y) told her, then i asked her, how did girl Y know in the first place? She said girl Y overheard girl X and some other or her classmates talking bad about her. I dunno if girl Y was lying or not, but, ever since then, i just didn't trust her completely....Well, not completely, at least tinggal about 10% left XDDD...

Aiwahhh...

PS - Beware of the people who are nice to you... but that doesn't mean that everybody who seems nice are mean, well, i learned that the hard way XDDD...

I'm me... Not Entirely sure about that but... Yea, i am what i am.

I'm a very complicated person... Trust me, I am. So, Since i'm a complicated person, these feelings that i have in my head must be complicated as well right? Bingo! I just hit a bullseye XDDD....

Some of these feelings, i dun anyone to know... Because in a way, they are very selfish, possesive, and etc....

I also get mad and jealous easily... So even though you may not know what you did wrong(and probably you didn't do anything wrong), if i suddenly just get angry at you or ignore you, or just make a blank face or blur face(but also means i'm not interested or i don't really have the mood to talk or i'm bored to death XDDD)....then you'll know.

I can't really explain it, but sometimes i know myself and sometimes i don't... It's weird but, whatever. I'm still an energetic youth, If my life span is long enough probably i'll be able to figure myself out.

Aiwahhh...

PS - From when i was born, till now... No one has ever been able to understand me or my feelings... But i hope there will be someone...someday.. XDDD

HONOUR TO THE PENGUINS~!!! >_<

Koizora

This is about this movie that i've been wanting to watch ever since....i saw that trailer... The trailer that i saw with Mar the day i went to watch a movie with billy, me, mar, and taufeeq.... The tittle is kinda cheesy but what ever!!!! i really like this movie so i dun need your opinions!!!! The english tittle is called sky of love....(=_=)" ...

Description...
-Last fall, over 3 million people were brought to tears by the movie Koizora. The original story of Koizora, by the author Mika, was popularized on the cell phone novel site, Mahou no Land, and since then has been turned into a novel, a movie, and now a drama. The highly popular movie will be turned into a drama, which follows the life of a normal higschool girl who experiences many unbelievably sad events, but through it all proving that love conquers all, and this true love story remains unchanged from the movie. Not only does it simply portray the first love of the highschoolers, it shows the warmth from the family, the importance of life, the bonds with friends, and the common happenings of teens, and through it all Mika and Hiro's love story gets unwound.

I dun like the drama... The dude that plays Hiro is so...not hot and isn't the slightest, in my opinion, cute!!... and the chemistry between Mika and Hiro, i just don't feel it in the drama... and as i was saying...the guy is NOT CUTE!!!! >_<

I've spent god knows how many hours searching for the movie, you can watch the drama on youtube, but i wanna watch the movie!! It's available on veoh but.... VEOH ISN'T FRIKKIN AVAILABLE IN MALAYSIA!!! WHY???!!

and so, i didn't give up! My semangat to watch it still exist... and finally my patience has been awarded

http://shisaki.co.nr

i'm soooo happy~!!!

I would like to thank this person who's gender is still a mystery to me, (from crunchyroll, username...)apirl, THANK YOU~!!! Even though i have absolutely no idea who you are, but... I LOVE YOU!!!! >_<

Cast from Movie
Yui Aragaki - Mika
Haruma Miura - Hiro

Cast from drama
Mika - Erena Mizusawa
Hiro - Koji Seto

You can also watch it at mysoju, but, it's like in parts so it's a bother la...

Okay~!! I got 1 more hour to waste till sahur,
Aiwahhh....

FYI, it's PG-18 cause it got those "tak baik" stuff that "little" kids can't watch... Just dun watch it whe nyour little sis/bro or parents are around.

....sorry, me again XD

I noticed something.... Yea... I did.... It's nice to stay up and stuff to watch your fav anime and read manga but...... I ACTUALLY SLEPT THE WHOLE DAY~!!! I mean, i coukd've used all that sleeping time surfing the net and reading pointless crap or something!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.....

Well.... At least Mr.Apple got some sleep~ ^^ ............................ =_=.. FUCK THAT!!!! >_<

Has A Blank Mind and A Blur Face ATM,
Aiwahhh....

A hilarious vid...

Yea.... my brother was nice enough to leave Mr.Apple with me for the whole day~!!! i'm soooo happy~!!! And i didn't go to school today cause i woke up late o.o YAAY~!! i get to stay at home with Mr.Apple~!!

Anyways, yea, my brader, he showed me this hilarious Vid... You guys should watch it... It's about this dudde trying to be a six year old....



In this one interview with this comedian, they asked him why he started doing this.... He said it was because he was sick of those people with their webcams acting like their life is miserable... =_=....

Watch and laugh, Fart and Cry,
Aiwahhh...

Not Asleep Yet...

Code Geass R2 epi 21 update...
Lulu-sama is the emperor of Britannia!! W00t!!! Go My Lulu-samaaaa~!!! >_<.... Gonna watch Epi 22 now~ XD

Code GEass R2 epi 22 update...
WTF!!! Nunally is alive and is the enemy of Lulu-sama??!!! Sigh... Why does this kind of crap keep on happening...

Poor Lulu-sama... Looks like Code Geass is far from over... I hope there is a season 3 XDDD


Ps - To Marr, I don't Suzaku that much now so you can continue to like him ^_^ I hate Scheniciel now!! ><

Aiwahhh...


fyi.... I'M GOING TO SLEEP FOR REAL THIS TIME XD

Ja Ne~!!!

No, i'm not moving... it's just that... Mr.Apple isn't mine and tomorrow....well today, he will be taken away by the big chubby man that likes to take pictures of himself at least 20 times a day..... TT^TT....

Probably won't be on for a few weeks...
(NOOOOOOOO! Don't jinx it! At least one week! ONE!!!)
Ehhh... You're still here? I thought you went back to hilal's blog already
(Yea, but he isn't awake and he got his stupid trials so i'm left alone)
Kesian... Don't forget to tell him I want to meet his sister kay?
(tak nak)
=_='

After I finish watching my Lulu-sama then i go sleep sleep....

BYE~!!!

is sad to not be able to use internet because the stupid kiplak punye comp rosak and has to use other peoples laptop,
Aiwahhh...

Bakuman!! ROCKS!! TT^TT (i love you marr...?)

Ever since my dear Dell (my second brother punye laptop) left me on the 30th of August...i've been... so very alone... not being able to see my dear Lulu-sama and Takagi-sama(i have two lovers now.... sorry lulu-sama but your going a bit crazy over Nunally-chan's death...don't mind me, just babbling XD) it's been damn torturing...

BUT!

My patience has rewarded me.... i got to read bakuman chapter 4 and 5 at last!!! You're right Marr... Azuki's mom is cute XDDD....

Tra lala lala...

Feels lke heaven~~ Waiting for Code Geass R2 epi 21 to finish uploading...

I hope Mr.Apple (my first brader laptop) and i will stay together forever~ >_
ANYWAYS BACK TO REALITY....

i'll just give some "short" updates of what has been going on....

30th August
- 10pm, i was spending my last moments with Dell doing god knows what until 4.3o am....

last week or so,
-i'm offically a pengawas >_< Yaay.....wait... i'm not sure if this is a good thing or bad thing O_o

Last friday,
I started experimenting with Takeshiro's eyes (this one dude i drew).....i used his eyes for some other people too... then girls.... nah... girls don't suit these eyes....

(i dunno when but i think, last week as well)
- my lil sis pijak paku so we have to jaga heer 24/7.....

(WAIT! look on the bright side!)
bright side?
(Yes! bright side! At least you will be able to spend more quality time with your sister that you love to bully~!! :D)
Stupid! consience! Damn you hilal!! ...?
(Sigh, don't mind me people, ever since the spelling-bee....well.. let's not talk about that in front of me shall we? i'm really sensative... =_=)
It's all hilal fult!
(see look at the poor girl.... she can't even spell fault now..)
......

today
-i experimented with flavours today~!
(is that a good thing? Wait till you guys hear what she put in the RICE)
i put.... two sticks of butter, some cinnamon sticks and raisins.... psst.. and also two big teaspoons of milo..i couldn't taste it later though...
(yea, gotta admit... it tasted kinda good..)
Seee!!

That's all for today, and this shall be the last day my "konsience" will be here.... hehe, i copy hilal punye stail XDDD...

Aiwahhh....

My Thoughts....

"WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS?"

This is a question I've heard from a lot of adults all my life(different sentence but basically same meaning la...) Some from those related to me, some not. Even if they don't ask me, i can still see it in their eyes.... I NOT paranoid. Trust me.

"Like this" in my case means loud, impulsive, messed up, combative, undisciplined, annoying... and other stuff too.... =_=

The reason the question gets asked so often, with such impatience, is because there's no easy explaining when it comes to me...

Well, i come from a nice family... i guess... Got two parents, not one. We're not really rich but not really poor just okay. We're well educated. Or should i say, they're well educated. Um, they made me read books when i was little. They also always told me to drink my milk and eat healthy stuff... I don't really think it's their fault...

I got two brothers.. ones in college, the other working... Got a big sis, got a lil sis....

Growing up, they only tease me and beat me up the 'normal' amount... so, why am i like this?

I don't know. Some people have a lot of space between thinking and doing. I don't have any(i do la, but i don't think a lot).. Some people look at themselves from the outside and try really hard to make themselves look good. I stay on the inside. I'd rather feel good than seem it.....

Sometimes i love that about myself, sometimes... i HATE it.

Why am I like this?

I don't know... I have a couple of theories, though...

Happy cause last day for me to ganti puasa.... but puasa is next week... damn,
Aiwaaah....

I feel sick =_=...

I dunno why, but i've been feeling really ill-ish... dan rase pening gile.... my body rase panas..... wait, maybe it's because i'm fasting? But, i dunno la, My forehead and my tummy feels really panas... Two more hours till buka puasa... sighhh..

Being Sick,Hungry, and Weak is so not my thing,
AIRAH

Chores for today...FINISHED!!!

Yaay... can finally rest.. but can't eat though, tgh ganti-ing my puasa..... But look on the bright side! I have no more chores for TODAY~


......................or so i thought...

Hungry as ever,
AIRAH

Up Early...... On a SATURDAY??? O_o

I dunno why, but here I am, up early... On a frikkin SATURDAY!!!?? I mean WTF?? Shouldn't I sleep more? i mean, It's only the first day of my holidays and i'm still waking up early?

Sigh, that's okay, this way, I can use the comp when my brothers asleep until he wakes up! hehe....

Hungry and Awake,
AIRAH

Holidays~!! Here I Come!!

Yess~!! Exams over, and the holidays are coming~ What more could I ask? sigh.... unfortunately, i have to snap out of this fantasy and face reality.... In reality, I have CHORES... Banyak pulak tu... sigh... Owh well, hopefully, I won't have to do that much chores this week... TT^TT...

AIRAH

Need sleep......

Tomorrow is science... Just finished studying... can't sleep.... damn... it's okay, i'll just read nabari no ou~ kawaii~ :D

AIRAH

The F-Word... Fork...?

Just now, when it was dinner, there was only me, my brother, and my lil sister. The rest didn't come down yet. Hana was eating with her fork. The she looked at it and asked my brother what it was.... Here was how the conversation went...

hana: abg ngah, ape ni?
aniki: that's a garpu....
me:fork la...
aniki:fork, yea, a fork..
hana: owhhh, fok ye?
(SILENCE)
aniki: no hana FORRRRK...
hana: owh, fok?
me: haha, no la hana FO-RRRRK
hana: owh, foke? (sounded like focker)
me and aniki : =_='
me: no la, bukan fork, garpu, apela abg ngah ni...
hana: abg ngah yg salah? owhhh... garpu ye?

Yea, that's how it went... A while after that everyone came down and we had dinner together.... and nobody knew....

Full and going,
AIRAH

Nooo!! Nunally has died!! What is Lulu-sama's purpose to fight now??

Yea... In Code Geass R2 epi 18, she died.. because of that stupid idiotic SUZAKU!!! THAT SHOW'S WHAT AN ASS HE IS!!! See Marr, i told you he was an ass, but no, you still prefered Lulu-sama over Suzaku!!! >.<

And to top it off, Rolo was planning to kill her to get his "brother's love"... pfft... what the hell la.. he still didn't notice... Lulu-sama was just using you, and he hates your guts!! hahahaha!!!

What will become of Lulu-sama now?? I shall wait for the 19th episode quitely...
(Terrifying laughing in the background...)

AIRAH

Code Geass Vs Death Note....

Wtf! Code Geass Vs Death Note?? Yea, It's true, a lot of people have been saying that. ^_^ Well, Code Geass : Lelouch Of The Rebellion R2(second season) in undoubtedly the show with the most buzz this season and it totally doesn't disappoint it's fans. The most surprising aspect of R2 is the "reset"... Lelouch's continuous plotting and scheming while avoiding the detection of his captors to his reawakening is reminescent of Kira's moves in Death Note...

What would happen if my lulu-sama(Lelouch aka Zero) fight Light (Kira)?? Who would be the craziest???

go to this url
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wEKE_qX9qqg&feature=related



This is the devil of Kira and Zero :D


Who frikkin cares if Light won that stupid fight of "Who's the craziest"?? I dun care... Lulu-sama is still the best for me :D...

For this video, please watch it, it doesn't really matter if you dun watch the other videos... just watch this one because my friend made this one.. O_O... yea it's true....



All Hail Zero!!
AIRAH

NOT ANOTHER MANGA UPDATE....Nabari No Ou is getting interesting....

WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?? (talking about the 3 pages up there... page 10,11 and 15...)




Before this, I have been reading this manga... At first, I wasn't really interested but as I kept reading it, it kept getting interesting.... So, this kind of manga may not be your type but it's gets better as you keep reading... This is about the normal school life and.... NINJAS!!

This is a unique manga from Kamatani Yuhki. The art work is just so..... CUTE!!

It's like.... the main character, Miharu, is like totally.... uhh... his personality is kinda indescribable.... =_='

Summary

Rokujou Miharu was a seemly reluctant junior high student living in his own world. However, within him, lurked the ultimate power of Nabari*, “Omnipotent”. To possess such supreme weapon, the Wolf Pack of Iga* swore to bring Miharu back to Iga village. On the other hand, Miharu’s English teacher, Kumohira sensei*, and classmate, Kouichi, were the Banten* ninjas whose mission was to protect Miharu. A war waged over the ownership of “Omnipotent” thus started. To survive, Miharu must enter the hidden world Nabari, to become the king.

Uhhh.... If you still don't understand what it's about then.....(one of my friends,who's name shall not be revealed under any circumstances, read this and she was like.....wha?... so here is the plot.. =_=')

Plot

Set in the modern age, the story is about Rokujo Miharu, who just wanted to live a normal life and inherit a Okonomiyaki restaurant. At the moment, his biggest problem was the constant pestering from Kouichi Aizawa and Durandal Thobari Kumohira, who started a Nindō (, "Way of the Ninja") Club. Miharu wanted nothing to do with "ninjas" and turns them down every time. But soon, he is attacked by an actual group of ninjas and is protected by Kouichi and Kumohira. There, Miharu learns of the hidden ninja world Nabari, the roles of his classmate and teacher in that world, and of the hijutsu Shinrabanshō (, Shinraba"all things in nature") within him. The hijutsu, containing all the world's knowledge, is sorely coveted after in Nabari. And because of that, Miharu cannot return to his normal life. He must become the "Ruler of Nabari" to survive.

Characters

Rokujo Miharu

Voiced by: Rie Kugimiya

The protagonist of series, Rokujo is a 14-year-old middle school student. He holds Nabari's hijutsu, the Shinrabanshō, in his body. He pretends to act indifferent to those around him in order to protect them from getting hurt, though he is not averse to acting in a rather innocent and cute way in order to get what he wants. He remembers little of his childhood, and had lost his parents at a young age. His only goal is to inherit his family's okonomiyaki store.

Yoite

Voiced by: Mitsuki Saiga

A 16-year-old ninja in the Kairōshū who uses the forbidden technique "kira". This technique shoots the user's ki into the body of a target and controls it from the inside out, which can cause the target's bones to break or their body to completely explode. The cost of using this technique is the loss of the user's life force, gradually losing their five senses and eventually dying. According to volume 4, he has roughly two more months to live. After first abducting Miharu and taking him to an abandoned train car, Yoite tells Miharu his friends will die from the ki he implanted inside them; unless Miharu utilizes the Shinrabanshō to grant his wish, to be "erased" from existence. This turns out to be a lie, but Miharu still aims to grant the wish.

, Kumohira Tobari Dyurandaru

Voiced by: Daisuke Namikawa

Rokujo's and Kouichi's 25-year-old teacher in the "front world". Born in Ireland, Kumohira is actually a ninja of the Banten village in the world of Nabari. He is entirely devoted to protecting Rokujo, and wants him to become the ruler of Nabari. He has an intense hatred of transport, such as trains and buses, and would not get on one until Rokujo manages to "persuade" him. He went to Japan because his grandfather was a "Japan otaku" and "ninja fanatic", who forced him to go to learn to become a ninja, and was unable to return home for ten years (partly due to his phobia of vehicles). In the anime, he is the temporary leader as the current leader is away, while in the manga, he is not just a stand-in, but actually has the power to arrange for a temporary leader. According to Aizawa, Kumohira has probably recorded Banten's kinjutsu through verbal communication.

Aizawa Kōichi

Voiced by: Satoshi Hino

Rokujo's 14-year-old classmate who studies nindō under Kumohira. Though he normally has an energetic attitude when around others, he is serious and relentless when it comes to his ninja duties, and is apparently fascinated with death. It is later revealed that his love of death is a result of his own inability to die. His immortality is attributed to the holder of the Shinrabanshō during the Edo Period, who was a medical practitioner, experimenting with placing the wisdom of the Shinrabanshō into animals, since humans usually died. There were only two survivors of the experiments, both of whom gained immortality as a result. Kōichi's ultimate goal is to find a way to die, as well as ensure that "monsters like [himself] are never created again."

Shimizu Raimei

Voiced by: Ayumi Fujimura

She is a 14-year-old guardian of the world of Nabari, and the head of the Shimizu clan. She is also a Fūma-nin (, Fūma no nin, "Wind Magic/Demon Ninja") who prefers fighting with a sword (named Kurogamon, Kur) over using ninjutsu, claiming to be a samurai. She has the tendency to mistake one person for another, or reveal information she means to keep to herself, when excited. Five years ago, her older brother, Raikō, annihilated their clan, and she has sworn to kill him in revenge. However, after the truth was revealed about how they died, her anger faded. She and her brother made up, but are still on the opposite sides. Yet, Raikou claims that he still loves his sister as he had said it to Gau and was worried about Raimei when Kouga attacked her.

Okay... once again, if you want to read this go to

http://www.mangafox.com/page/manga/series/1667/nabari_no_ou/


^_^,
AIRAH

My Nakama...My Tomodachi... My Friends...

It's really hard to find friends who actually care for you and help you out... Trust me, I definitely KNOW how frikkin hard it is.... How I know? Don't ask, just had some really bad experiences back at my old school in Penang... Even Billy doesn't know... It's actually no surprise for billy not to know much of my elementary school days back at Minden Heights... I'm the type that likes to keep everything to myself...
A lot of serious shit happened back then, back with my old "friends"... well if you can actually call them that. Well, never mind about the dulu-dulu punya story, I just wanted to say, how happy i am to not think bad stuff about my friends now (well not all... ade la my classmates and all XDDD)... It feels really good not to put on that fucking fake smile...

THANK YOU TO ALL MY NAKAMA WHO HAVE CARED FOR ME AND HELPED ME WITH ALL MY TROUBLES!!!

I, especially, want to say thank you to Karina and Dahlia, who's always been there for me, when I cried, had love problems, had other... problems, and all that shit. Thank you for making me actually smile again....

THANK YOU EVERYBODY! MY FRIENDS AT TAHC! MY FRIENDS WHO ARE NOT PART OF TAHC.... AND etc etc...

AIRAH

B for.... Bakuman..?

I'm sure everyone knows Ohba tsugumi right? no? Well, i'm sure you've at LEAST heard of Death Note right? yes? no? whatevr...okay! Moving on...

He just recently created a new manga, BAKUMAN....

Bakuman is basically about two boys in 9th grade who wish to be mangakas. The two main characters are accomplished artist Moritaka Mashiro (Mashiro Moritaka) and aspiring writer Akito Takagi (, Takagi Akito).

You can read it at

http://www.mangafox.com/page/manga/series/4051/bakuman/

or

http://www.onemanga.com/Bakuman/

This is the summary

Summary

It's not easy to become and live as a mangaka, Mashiro knows that from his late uncle. At his 9th grade, while trying to keep up with reality, school and then normal job, he left his notebook with a sketch of Azuki, a girl he likes. Tamaki, a first rate student found it and trying to convince Mashiro to draw a manga with his story. Mashiro doesn't like the idea and tries to decline. Tamaki, however, tries to stick to dream and found out that Azuki also wants to be a voice actress and already got a good reply from a production company. Tamaki, then, brought Mashiro to her house and telling her his dream.... Mashiro then tells her that he will write a manga with Tamaki and will ask Azuki to voice their anime. Out of confusion, Mashiro asks her if the dreams become reality, will she marry him? She says yes, only if their dreams become true, and not otherwise!! Now, lifes of wannabe mangakas begun!!!

It's good, and so far there is only, like, one chapter entitled Dreams And Reality (Yume to genjitsu).... O_o... so, yea like i said... it's new...


AIRAH

Waahhh~!! Ashli~!! Otanjoubi Omedato~!!

Happy belated birthday Ashli!!! Yea, i guess that you had quite a wild "surprise" (nahh, i'm thinking that you knew)... hehe eggs and all~! Well Hilal, FYI you weren't the only person who threw eggs at Ashli. There was me, Dahlia, Karina(nicknames are tiring.... seriously...), the twins and.... wait that's it, all of us were throwing eggs at him... it was soo hilarious, cause the eggs, didn't break! Dahlia was like "Heyyy! How's life?" at ashli, while patting his back (with the egg of course).... but *GASP* the egg didn't break! It was sooo frikin hilarious... Audrey dear, it was a shame you had to miss it... XDDDD

After that, Nady was there, she was like "owh, don't be so mean" and we were all like "it's like tradition"... Then, Dahlia was like yelling at Karina "throw the egg! throw the egg!" she was pointing at Nady, Then the egg just went SPLAT! at Nady's head... It was pretty hilarious... tried not to laugh, but she was pretty pissed so karina splatted an egg on her head as well....

Couldn't stop laughing... but sorry Nady! It was really funny... XDDDD

AIRAH

L-O-V-E.....

WTF..... Plz read the below....

"Darling~!! Nothing can halang our WOVE~!!! Let's get married!!"
"But My Parents Don't Approve Of Us~!!"
"It's Ok-ayy, nothing can stand in the way of out love!! Even Money Doesn't Stand A Chance Between US"
"It's Okay~ I dON'T mIND :D .. We Can Use My Money~!!"
"Let's end our school life! And run away together~!!"

And They Run Away, and live a "happy" life... heh... as if...

Like WTF....

The chic is like a total idiot...
Of course, love is important...
YEA... OF COURSE... Love is soooo important....
It's like SOOOO much more important that money and your future!

ehemmm....

yea..

love is important, but isn't better to be balance with MONEY and FUTURE??

I just can't understand some people....
They are really stupid.

No matter how much i love someone, he has to 1) have money that's more than enough money to support a family... 2)a good career... and 3)doesn't get in the way of my dreams...

If he can't do that, i'm sorry la...
BUT if he really does "love" me like he says, than he will work his ass off to get money :D

The reason for me to post this, is because I just read this article in this magazine about this high school girl missing cause she ran away with her unemployed, 2o year old, boyfriend...

really stupid..

Money is really important for me.

This is my ranking.....

1.Family
2.Friends
2 1/2.Money
3.Love (sorry, but, yea this is the rank of LOVE) / Future..?

owh kay....

Sincerly,
AIRAH

Freedom

Freedom...

What is freedom?

No, I mean, what exactly does that mean?

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

I really need Help...
I can't breath here..
The word "freedom"...
heh...
seems so frikin distant here...
When can i be free..
I just need to get the hell out...

Being free...
Is that what it means?

Running away...
Is that also freedom?

sigh...

Why is it so boring here?

Why is it so small here?

Why can't i be free from here?

.............................

I can't do anything...

Even if i try...

In the end...
I have to continue..
being trap in this godforsaken place..
but i keep wondering...
What will happen once i get out..
Will i be able to survive....

With the world being so screwed up right now..

Do i really want get out...
From this small cage...

Do i?

Why do I feel confused right now?

I just want to blame someone right now...

but...

who should i blame?

Politicians?

Parents?

The world?

School??







Or ME.....


Sincerly,
AIRAH

The Wedding That Was A Total Waste Of My Time....

This wedding followed the 3 day tradition thingy.... which was in my opinion crap... i mean, yea day 1 was very touching (according to my mom, i wasn't listening) but day 2 and 3 was so...urrgggh!! (well we didn't go to the wedding on the 3rd day.. hehe)...

Just wasn't worth it la... (to me, that is~)


Over and Out,
AIRAH

Prefect Dinner........

I was having fun~!!! Before it started everyone were so restless, we were running around and stuff... I waited for the others to arrive. When Miko-chan arrived, we decided to stroll around the ballroom... Venturing the other area's... Then we stopped for a moment and sat down. The Miko said "Hey, Let's bother ****" She still doesn't know that i like HIM. Bothering him was pure fun, and me and Miko were sms-ing him during Datin's BOOOOOOOOOORRINGGGGGG speech...

Owh, but speaking of speeches the Datin gave a speech when she came. It was so boring because the Datin was giving a very the "short" speech....... Her so called "short" speech lasted for almost ONE HOUR!!! Is that short? I DON"T THINK SO! Even Ckg.DiN was signaling her that time was running out.. And to top it all she came extremely late.... sigh... then she had to go back early so she could finish her "assignment".. i mean what the hell?

Anyways, after she left everyone started going really WILD! That's when all the fun began. Miko-chan and I were stuffing our belly's with food! Everyone sang and acted..... It was fun.

Even when it ended there was some other functions in the other ballrooms and there was really loud music, so loud that we could even hear from the outside. So everyone was sitting on the staircase, singing along to the loud blaring music while waiting for out parents... Everyone laughed and made funny jokes.

AIRAH

It's SATURDAY~!!!! but....i have to go to school...damn ...

Yippee... school on a Saturday... and the worst part was, there were no teachers that came into my class... what's the point of coming to school if we weren't going to learn anything?? damn, i shouldn't have come.. Since there were no teachers at all, us form 1 prefects went to rehearse since the dinner is tonight...
Today for no apparent reason I was really stressed out and my neck hurt like hell....i went to see Mr.D in the counseling room and i asked him, he said it is probably due to me bottling up my stress and not sharing it with anyone...but, i really don't want anyone to know my problems. That's one, and two, i'm too lazy to tell the whole story... i even kept this a secret to my Nee-chan (because i tell her everything).. Next week thursday, i'm having my third session with Mr.D.
Gotta go get ready for the dinner, Marr is gonna come pick me up soon. I'll write about the dinner when I get back. ^_^

AIRAH

The Daily Crap :D

I like formal dinner's and all but, when you have absolutely nothing to wear it's like 'GAAAAAAAAARRRGGGHHH!!!' ....Words can't decide how i'm feeling atm....sigh......

AT SCHOOL
dumm...dum...dum......DUMMMM...... Today I skipped class...really didn't have any mood, and i was helping out in the bilik kitar semula thingy...well...wasn't really helping just sitting down reading comics... I have interacted well with HIM. yea, HIM......dunno what to say, we talk well, we are in the same group DR and KS made......nothing much to say actually....I like him? yea, i can say that but what the hell.....what are the chances of HIM liking me? HE also currently has a crush.... well, probably i dun like him enough for him to be my 'soul mate'(..?) but hey, we are still in our teens. Who knows? :D

HOME(need formal wear.....for dinner)
Shitshitshitshitshitshitshit!!!! Owh, was i just thinking out loud? hehe, sorry..
Oooh! yes! Latest discovery! I have found it! the one! yea, i found something to wear...gonna continue reading manga...

AIRAH

Is Life Cruel? In My Opinion, YES.

Things you should know about me, likes unique people, hates boring conversations, loves sweet deserts. I like cream puffs and cake especially.

My life used to be so boring, yea, if i think back i never really did anything exciting, and i never thought that the world would be such a pain in the ass....Well, this year is going to be the starting point of my life where i start getting off my ass and actually start having some fun.

And I almost forgot to mention...

WELCOME TO MY BLOG AND SEE LIFE THROUGH MY EYES
(sorry if the tittle is corny ...i mean...pfft... Life through my eyes?
who am i kidding? Fyi my time was very limited and i was very blurr atm...)