To hell with 2009, Woo hoo 2010 xD

Ahhhhh.... The year went by so fast...

Actually it didn't, this year has probably been one of my worst. So much bad shit happening i almost just wished that this year didn't exist.

Owh well, at least I'm behind all that stuff... or am i?


Good Riddance 2009

жизнь и смерть

There has to be atleast once in your life where you ask yourself...

"How much time do i have left?"
"Will i have done everything that i ever wanted to before my 'time' comes?"
"How will i die? Will i Die happily?"

"What will happen after i die? Will I go To Heaven or Hell?"


I have never thought much about what i want to do with my life.. I have never really valued it either.. I'm really afraid of thinking what happens to me after i die...

I guess it's normal for everyone to be thinking this.

It's really hard.. Living is hard.

In life, we don't get it very easy.

As a teenager, you go to school, teacher tell you to study really really hard so that you can get all A's. They make us think that if we get anything below A, we are stupid. I know that that thinking is wrong. I know, but sometimes we can't help but to think that way.

Studies is one thing, but then you got back stabbers, you got people who isolate you, bullies, Ex-best freinds, ex-enemies, acquaintences... Maybe one or two among them will be your good friends.

All they do is make your life harder. Friends will start going against each other.. And you will have to make a decision. If you choose either one, you will lose a friend. Choose neither, you lose both.

Ahhh, love, the happiest thing a girl could ever encounter. Especially if you're still in high school. Everyone will encounter the 'puppy dog' illness. They all think that their in love. Infactuation... It's terrible. One-sided love, most people say its worst. Make the wrongs choices and one way or another, you get pragnant and the guy gets away with it. The parents will call you a whore.

Life does suck.

All this makes you think, is life really that worth it?

I think that it is, even though bad shit happens to you, you get played or whatever, but at times, there will be a time when you are truely happy. Even though its only only for a minute or two...

They say form 1 and form 2 and the crucial times, because that's when you start finding yourself, or finding new friends, your old bestfriends somehow becoming more and more unknown to you.

And they also say that your last few years of school will be your best. You will become more mature, so do some of the guys. Thats the time when evryone becomes more known to you. Also the time when you are about to enter the "alam dewasa" (oooooh)



I hope i will live long enough so that i can experience all kinds of things.
I hope i won't die to soon..

Life and Death
жизнь и смерть

..Конец..

Pineapples Have Never Been This Good O_O...

Seriously!! I've always hated pineapples cause.... I didn't like the taste, but their actually not that bad O_O

My eyes have now been opened to a new world... A world of...

PINEAPPLES O_O

Freaky?

Yes I know...

But..

Their Pineapples O_O

Let's Go Dream Team~!!!

Minho from SHInee is so adorable~ Me and billy were watching him on KBS today, Kyaaa...~~ <3<3 Looks like fangirls will forever be ones XD

I guess lying is unavoidable...?

We can't help but to lie lie lie.... I challenged myself to not lie for the whole day today. I didn't :D

Feeling really proud of myself atm... :D

Challenging yourself is so fun~! Like challenging yourself to win that phone game that gets you so addicted!!

haihh...

:D

So Much For Never Writing Again... =_=

H-E-T-A-L-I-A.....

It is so awesome~~!!! >_<
It's so awesome....

NEED I SAY MoRE??? IT'S FRIKKIN AWESOME~~!!!

>_<

:D

Over and Out.

Damn It's Been Long.....

Blogs are such a drag... i mean, why bother to actually tell people about your life? And you always have to update it and bla bla bla ... Not that i actually care XD

It has been a year since i've been trying to revive that sad excuse for a computer... But i'm not going to give up yet... Not yet~!!

I'm probably not gonna update this blog until another year or so... lol... so Bye~Bye :D

For some reason, I hate nice people O_o...

I like weird people... I like extra sarcastic or blur people. I also like the people who are nice but i know they aren't 100% nice. I dunno why, but it's really hard to believe that there is actually someone who is really nice... i dunno why.

Probably I don't trust them, because i've had some very unpleasent past experiences with friends back at my old school(probably one of the reason why i'm so screwed up right now.. ha ha XDDD)...Well there is also a recent story that made me not trust people who appear to be very nice...

There's this girl(whose name shall not be revealed cause i'm a very kind person..pfft..Just call her girl X)in class --BEEP--, she is very nice to people, she allows them to borrow her stuff, when people accidently spilled their water on her baju she didn't mind, when people ask her to help them with homework she helped... but...one day... One of my --BEEP-- was crying cause a few or her classmates were talking bad about her behind her back...

I asked her how did she find out. She said that one of her friends(girl Y) told her, then i asked her, how did girl Y know in the first place? She said girl Y overheard girl X and some other or her classmates talking bad about her. I dunno if girl Y was lying or not, but, ever since then, i just didn't trust her completely....Well, not completely, at least tinggal about 10% left XDDD...

Aiwahhh...

PS - Beware of the people who are nice to you... but that doesn't mean that everybody who seems nice are mean, well, i learned that the hard way XDDD...

I'm me... Not Entirely sure about that but... Yea, i am what i am.

I'm a very complicated person... Trust me, I am. So, Since i'm a complicated person, these feelings that i have in my head must be complicated as well right? Bingo! I just hit a bullseye XDDD....

Some of these feelings, i dun anyone to know... Because in a way, they are very selfish, possesive, and etc....

I also get mad and jealous easily... So even though you may not know what you did wrong(and probably you didn't do anything wrong), if i suddenly just get angry at you or ignore you, or just make a blank face or blur face(but also means i'm not interested or i don't really have the mood to talk or i'm bored to death XDDD)....then you'll know.

I can't really explain it, but sometimes i know myself and sometimes i don't... It's weird but, whatever. I'm still an energetic youth, If my life span is long enough probably i'll be able to figure myself out.

Aiwahhh...

PS - From when i was born, till now... No one has ever been able to understand me or my feelings... But i hope there will be someone...someday.. XDDD

HONOUR TO THE PENGUINS~!!! >_<