My Thoughts....

"WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS?"

This is a question I've heard from a lot of adults all my life(different sentence but basically same meaning la...) Some from those related to me, some not. Even if they don't ask me, i can still see it in their eyes.... I NOT paranoid. Trust me.

"Like this" in my case means loud, impulsive, messed up, combative, undisciplined, annoying... and other stuff too.... =_=

The reason the question gets asked so often, with such impatience, is because there's no easy explaining when it comes to me...

Well, i come from a nice family... i guess... Got two parents, not one. We're not really rich but not really poor just okay. We're well educated. Or should i say, they're well educated. Um, they made me read books when i was little. They also always told me to drink my milk and eat healthy stuff... I don't really think it's their fault...

I got two brothers.. ones in college, the other working... Got a big sis, got a lil sis....

Growing up, they only tease me and beat me up the 'normal' amount... so, why am i like this?

I don't know. Some people have a lot of space between thinking and doing. I don't have any(i do la, but i don't think a lot).. Some people look at themselves from the outside and try really hard to make themselves look good. I stay on the inside. I'd rather feel good than seem it.....

Sometimes i love that about myself, sometimes... i HATE it.

Why am I like this?

I don't know... I have a couple of theories, though...

Happy cause last day for me to ganti puasa.... but puasa is next week... damn,
Aiwaaah....

I feel sick =_=...

I dunno why, but i've been feeling really ill-ish... dan rase pening gile.... my body rase panas..... wait, maybe it's because i'm fasting? But, i dunno la, My forehead and my tummy feels really panas... Two more hours till buka puasa... sighhh..

Being Sick,Hungry, and Weak is so not my thing,
AIRAH

Chores for today...FINISHED!!!

Yaay... can finally rest.. but can't eat though, tgh ganti-ing my puasa..... But look on the bright side! I have no more chores for TODAY~


......................or so i thought...

Hungry as ever,
AIRAH

Up Early...... On a SATURDAY??? O_o

I dunno why, but here I am, up early... On a frikkin SATURDAY!!!?? I mean WTF?? Shouldn't I sleep more? i mean, It's only the first day of my holidays and i'm still waking up early?

Sigh, that's okay, this way, I can use the comp when my brothers asleep until he wakes up! hehe....

Hungry and Awake,
AIRAH

Holidays~!! Here I Come!!

Yess~!! Exams over, and the holidays are coming~ What more could I ask? sigh.... unfortunately, i have to snap out of this fantasy and face reality.... In reality, I have CHORES... Banyak pulak tu... sigh... Owh well, hopefully, I won't have to do that much chores this week... TT^TT...

AIRAH

Need sleep......

Tomorrow is science... Just finished studying... can't sleep.... damn... it's okay, i'll just read nabari no ou~ kawaii~ :D

AIRAH

The F-Word... Fork...?

Just now, when it was dinner, there was only me, my brother, and my lil sister. The rest didn't come down yet. Hana was eating with her fork. The she looked at it and asked my brother what it was.... Here was how the conversation went...

hana: abg ngah, ape ni?
aniki: that's a garpu....
me:fork la...
aniki:fork, yea, a fork..
hana: owhhh, fok ye?
(SILENCE)
aniki: no hana FORRRRK...
hana: owh, fok?
me: haha, no la hana FO-RRRRK
hana: owh, foke? (sounded like focker)
me and aniki : =_='
me: no la, bukan fork, garpu, apela abg ngah ni...
hana: abg ngah yg salah? owhhh... garpu ye?

Yea, that's how it went... A while after that everyone came down and we had dinner together.... and nobody knew....

Full and going,
AIRAH

Nooo!! Nunally has died!! What is Lulu-sama's purpose to fight now??

Yea... In Code Geass R2 epi 18, she died.. because of that stupid idiotic SUZAKU!!! THAT SHOW'S WHAT AN ASS HE IS!!! See Marr, i told you he was an ass, but no, you still prefered Lulu-sama over Suzaku!!! >.<

And to top it off, Rolo was planning to kill her to get his "brother's love"... pfft... what the hell la.. he still didn't notice... Lulu-sama was just using you, and he hates your guts!! hahahaha!!!

What will become of Lulu-sama now?? I shall wait for the 19th episode quitely...
(Terrifying laughing in the background...)

AIRAH